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+title: Updates and my current projects
+author: Maple
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+So, over the past few months I've was out of school and it really took a toll on me, and left me with no motivation to do anything
+in that time. That's been incredibly stressful simply because I have university applications to sort out, on top of just the stress
+of knowing that something is wrong.
+
+To try and help me get past that, I've started to work on a video project of my year, which I'll put on my website if and when it's done.
+The first few clips have come out well, but there is one thing I really struggle with; Not living in the moment. I knew that the mindset
+of recording every major thing that happens in my life is not one I have naturally going into this, and at times I wish I recorded some
+of these things.
+
+An example of this was last weekend on Valentines Day, and I really wanted to record my fun day out with my boyfriend. While I took
+a fair few photos, I didn't really get any video for my grand video. Of course, living in the moment over thinking to record things is
+definitely a thing people really need these days, I wish I could've gotten footage. Another struggle with this project I forsee being an
+issue is just that I am not very good at speaking in front of a camera, let alone in a public space.
+
+The last thing I really have to say about this is just *why* I'm making the video. It really comes down to the fact that I've had no
+motivation these past few months for anything, and that if I commit myself to making a creative project it'll help me. I know it is a
+fairly ambitious project, especially given how underprepared and unskilled I am, but I thought it was worth a shot. Perhaps in recording
+it I'll have more things to write for this blog (even if it ends up being written forms of what that portion of video is lol)
+
+I think that about wraps up what I'm doing for my current big project, so I'll see you next time! Bye!
+
+<sub>I might just write another article right now about the state of the website, but I just wanted to get *something* out.</sub>